Frustration

To do lists

I have recently become a huge fan of to-do lists. It may be because with my job and where I am at with it comes a lot more responsibility and if I don't put something on a list I can't guarantee its gonna get done. But I now find myself making lists of things that need to get done for myself, even the little things. I just love to do lists, and I especially love the feeling of being able to cross off tasks one by one! The reason I thought of this is because I started to make the to-do lists on my computer, on my stickies program. It is great. I can have a "post it" note on my desktop to remind me of the things I need to get done!

So I really REALLY hate valentines day. With a passion. Nothing excites me about this holiday...except for maybe the candy. A large part of this is probably due to the fact that I have never had a boyfriend on, or even around valentines day, and it is made painfully obvious to me that I am still single on that day. THANK YOU FOR REMINDING ME YOU AWFUL COMMERCIALIZED HOLIDAY.

I can't sleep right now either. I am really tired, but I feel like I didnt quite use the sensors I could have this weekend, and probably said a lot more crap than I should have. I really hate when I do that because I know its gonna come back around and haunt me later on in life, and that worries me, and makes it so much more obvious of my flaws. GAAA keep your mouth shut annie.

I am super excited for my sister to move home in a couple of weeks. We were talking on the phone a few days ago and figured out that it has been well over 5 years (we figured about 7) since we lived less than 6 hours from each other. That is so crazy to me, and I can't wait. The first few weeks will be interesting cause i am gonna have that natural feeling that I have to get all of this stuff in with her before she goes back, but she doesn't have to go back to anywhere, she will be home :)

Last but not least, I feel the need to make a list of the things that I am excited for this summer!:
~Twins games...I LOVE target field, and need to go more than I did last year
~Camping
~The boundary waters
~Valley fair
~Flip Flops :)
~The beach
~Driving with the windows down

I am sure there is plenty more that I am excited for, but that is all that comes to mind at this time. I will continue to add things from time to time

Social life

I love Sundays. I am sad that I didn't get to go to church this morning, but at the same time glad that I was done working at 2 instead of just starting. Now I am just chillin and watching Rent. I love this movie. I think I saw it 3 times in theaters (dollar theater!) I have yet to see the broadway play, but I hope that someday I will. If they were to make sing-a-long movies for adults (ya know, like the old school ones they used to make for Disney with the words at the bottom) they would totally have to make one of Rent. Cause I do sing along to the whole movie :) My mom also made Chili and is making corn bread, so I didnt have to miss that meal!!

January is kind of a blah month. I mean, its pretty much the middle of the winter. There has been snow on the ground since November, and will more than likely be snow on the ground till March. And there really isn't a whole lot that happens this month. The first part of the month for me is spent getting back into the regularity of everyday life after the holidays (as I am sure is the case for most people). It also tends to be the month when I get a little bit of seasonal depression, and want to spend a majoirty of my free time in bed in my jammies with a good movie or tv show to watch or a good book to read. But this January I have been pretty busy, and I have been wanting to hang out with more people. I have been making more of a conscious effort of setting up times with friends and family to hang out. I want to make sure to keep good strong relationships. I have always had a great, diverse group of friends, wonderful sisters and parents, and in general, a wonderful support system and I don't want to lose any of them :)

I will try and blog more, cause I have been told that 1-2 times a month isnt really cutting it. I just need to realize that my blog doesn't need to be perfect and it doesnt need to always make sense. It is what it is so there! Okay, I am off now.

Oh the snow

I really need to tighten up on my finances.....I am finding myself in more and more predicaments because I am simply not careful about how I spend my money. I think part of it is the christmas season, and just not having all that much money, and buying things for people like I have more than I actually do. I think I am going to make that my new year's resolution. Because I am getting really sick of living paycheck to paycheck. I also think I need to start looking for a second job. Oh the joys.

So I really love looking at snow. It makes the trees so pretty, and I kind of feel like I am in a winter wonderland. Haha, I know that sounds really corny, but its true. Driving in it is not so much fun, but it sure is pretty! It kind of looks like a scene straight from a christmas movie, like White Christmas or some other one, sometimes even like a fairytale, like the scene in Beauty and the Beast where they are playing in the snow. You know which one I am talking about ;)

HMM....I get to work a 32 hour shift today. Well, today into tomorrow. I sometimes feel like everyone asks me to hang out like 3 hours before I am going to work, and then it probably appears that I am a workaholic. (which recently I have discovered that I probably am...oops) But if I don't keep myself busy I have a tendency to feel really bad about myself. Who the heck knows why.

This whole blogging more thing is goin okay...I feel like I am complaining more than I had been, and I also feel like I am saying "I" alot. But who the heck cares, cause its my blog right? Not like many people are reading it, I am more doing it for myself. (But sometimes I do wish more people read it) I think that is all for today. Time to prepare for work

Anything you can do I can do better

I am venting for the first paragraph of this, and if there is anyone reading who will be offended I am going to apologize right now. So my parents got a new car today. They needed it, and I know that. I got my car three months ago (and I LOVE my car, best car I have ever had) but of course they have to one up me and get a new car three months later with all the bells and whistles. And when I say that I kinda mean it...heated seats, radio controls on the steering wheel, frickin blinker lights on the mirrors. I know its stupid and totally not true at all but when it comes to things like this I always feel like I am being one-upped. like BAHAHA this is better than yours. Okay end jealous rant.

I have been down today. I don't really know why. I think part of it has to do with the stuff I am doin at work, part of it has to do with people in my life, and a lot of it has to do with me in general. I was talking about this with a friend tonight but I feel like you change so much in your twenties. I feel like you grow up a lot, and (this sounds kind of horrible) but you grow in and out of relationships. Some of which you were sure would be lifelong...and ones you find are stronger than others. It also seems like you find out that you aren't invincible. Ahh, the growing years. Why did no one warn me of this.

Okay I promise next time I will not complain as much.

DECEMBER

My goal of this month is to blog a little bit more. I guess I have been so spotty with blogging cause I feel like all I am going to do is complain...so if I am, please tell me. And if you like my blog tell me that too!

Got my new glasses today. I am still adjusting to them because they are so different than anything I have ever gotten for glasses before. There a picture at the end of the post....opinions would be great!

I am going to see HP7 part 1 again today. I am not gonna lie, I am pretty excited about it :) I was worried that the movie wouldn't be good but I actually thoroughly enjoyed it.

I have decided that the best feeling ever in the winter is getting into a bed with flannel sheets. I just got a pair on the day after thanksgiving because they were relatively cheap and I needed a pair, and oh my word, my bed is so much more comfortable to sleep in. LOVE IT.

Okay, I think that is all for today. It's short, but its a good start to my goal of the month

Relationships

So I have been thinking a lot lately about the different relationships that I have in my life. Relationships with my friends, family, coworkers, residents. Just relationships in general. There are relationships that are stronger than other ones, and ones that I wish I didn't suck so bad at maintaining. I also think about the relationships that I have let go, and the people that I thought I would always talk to. I mean I  know that every single relationship you make in your life isn't necessarily going to be a lifelong relationship, but there are some that you really thought you would. I don't know if it is just the age that I am at or what but its been something that has been on my mind a lot.

 I bought new boots today. I should have totally felt guilty about it, but to be honest, I really didnt. I needed a pair of winter boots that I can wear to work, or when I am goin out and what not so I am kind of excited about them. Okay, really excited about them.

One thing I learned today is that a cup of coffee can go a long way. And I don't mean the caffeine. I picked up a shift at work this weekend that had been filled, then not filled, then filled again, then at the last minute not filled. I covered the shift cause one of the people that was supposed to work told me they didnt feel well, so I was like whatever I will work it. So the person I worked on sunday brought me a cup of coffee and it totally made my day today :)